and they were roommates

[nian_yi]

I've been feeling really down these past couple of days, but I guess I finally finished this one. It was intended as a parting gift for my roommate from last year, but I never actually gave it to her. I had written the second stanza after we watched Portrait of a Lady on Fire together, sitting on our shared couch, one of us on each side, tipsy and teary. I wonder what this semester would have been like if we were still living together, all the new things we would've learned about each other, all the shared time and experiences. I hope she misses me as much as I miss her.


一年四季颠倒梦想

晚夏带来一场雷雨
麻雀在屋檐下相聚
以等待为杯 盛起雨声
蝉鸣 所有的蝴蝶振翅
叮——地轻碰
微醺 几滴琥珀从掌心滑落
洒在土里 生根

秋风冷 不如酩酊
仰头咽下一团花火
随你跌入盅里
梦被惊得四处逃窜
你捉住一只 轻轻地吻
天边 一缕长发挂在月牙尖
发丝散落大地 化做河流
我伸手掬起一捧 看它变幻
好似满天星斗缠绕指间

在冬日悠悠转醒
匆匆错身 遥遥望见别离
我钻进镜子 走向远方的海
路上偶尔独酌 煮一壶回忆
有风追上我 轻拂我脸颊
雪花被体温融化 再慢慢流下
我别过头 小声问起你
她道你已在落日尽头
于是我回过头

回过头 透过镜的碎片看你
透过打不开的窗看夕阳
看晚霞点燃一整排樱花树
看樱花飞舞 点缀你裙袂
才惊觉原来已经春回

佛说：一切有为法 如梦幻泡影
如露亦如电 应作如是观
溪水奔向卵石 野草爬出围栏
昆虫嗡鸣 诗句盘绕
这一切纠缠着向下流去
一切都比你我更接近永远

我在岸边看你离去
只听佛说：在这一瞬间
拥抱那些颠倒梦想